Nope I

Not pregnant.

Miserable.

Terrified.

Ill.

Had a sudden attack of Fear. I was ill with 'flu on Thurs, and the temperature made me nauseous. And I remembered how hideous it is, to be nauseous and vomiting twenty-four hours a day for weeks on end. To keep nothing down. To become so dehydrated that you would die if it weren't for being put on a drip. To watch your vomit become peppered with blood. To be unable to talk because your throat has been doused with bile, hourly, for weeks, and it burns constantly. And you can't sit up because your stomach muscles are so sore from the retching, and you can't walk because you're so hungry and weak...

So, anyway. Yes. Scared. Scared of all that. Fucking terrified.